Summing up the ex post (that came in installments): the inescapable conclusion is that either you embrace God or you go for nothing.
(And if you go for nothing, you'll end up going for anything faster than you'd to say a Hail Mary.
This is because you're wired - as G.K. Chesterton observed and probably you have by now too - in such a way that you must believe in something.
So if you've chosen nothing rather than the Lord, you're very likely to be bowing, even as we speak, before genes, 'Evolution', some kind of Martians, 'eternal' hard stuff /matter,, the Jedi, a naked 15-year-old, yourself or whatever.
If so, bless you.)
