Monday, 17 June 2013

Forever & Always


Одиночество-сволочь, одиночество-скука
Я не чувствую сердце, я не чувствую руку
Я сама так решила, тишина мне подруга
Лучше б я согрешила, одиночество-мука.*


[Now it’s on the record here too, love]

Samantha loves Richard
Forever
&
Always
................
   2008**

 

PS A few decades ago I noticed an inscription in one of the cubicles in the second-floor toilet of my grammar school. It was announcing to peers that someone loved someone else (a boy and a girl type of relation). I smiled a condescending smile: to abolish democracy, to lower the overal  level of taxation, to restore Dualism for my girlfriend - maybe; but to write stuff on toilet walls?

Then, a decade or so later, I noticed a similar declaration, in a similar place, somewhere in Warsaw. My marriage - and love, born in a classroom not far from that toilet in that provincial grammar school – had developed very ugly cracks by then and was soon to crumble; or more precisely: I’d been making regular attempts at killing it and was soon to succeed***.

I looked again at that other profession of love that wouldn’t be suppressed, remembered the old-school one and thought of their authors with envy and respect: how I wished now I felt compelled to announce my love to the world, or at least to peers.


Я тебя люблю  Rwy'n dy garu di मैं तुम से प्यार करता हूँ.



*a  local Russian-speaking friend of mine keeps me posted on Russian and Ukrainian pop, which is good - I'm a sucker for Russian music, from Stravinsky to Slava. The other song I've attached is a chilling story of human eternal damnation, one of the pieces I'm going to use to illustrate my attempt at the explanation of divine eternal damnation and Hell - soon(er or later).

*Strangely, on the reassuringly coloured (Purple Pout/Mulberry Burst/Red) leaflet from a First Great Western train that (the leaflet, not the train) I found on a recent trip to the local Metropolis there was another date too: 2017 (or 2012 – the writing’s not clear). Could it be another piece of evidence that eternal love can only be God's, or miraculously God-sustained?

***Go on, congratulate me. It’s just a blog to you, isn’t it?

... sorry, that’s not fair. I apologise.